Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Very superstitious?

Superstitious? At a time, to a fault...

In celebration of yet another Friday the 13th quickly approaching, it got me thinking about my highly superstitious self throughout the years.  I've been avoiding broken mirrors, walking under ladders and any other widely recognized superstition you can think of for years.  I even began to enthuse my own superstitions when I was in school.  While some are painfully embarrassing, others were more common and included things like "lucky socks" for basketball games and purposefully telling myself I would fail tests, when I knew deep down I knew that wasn't the case.  Set your expectations extremely low and I guess you're never disappointed.

In any event, I'm happy to say that my superstitious ways have really subsided for the most part.  I have some moments but I'm happy to report I do leave my house on Friday the 13th, would happily stay on the 13th floor of a hotel, all while looking into an old broken compact mirror.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

Truth

I wrote this late last night. It's my therapy, thanks for reading!

It happens when you least expect it; life that is. The good, the bad, the ugly and the beautiful all appear intermittently throughout your lifetime.  I’ve had the privilege of experiencing every end of the spectrum.  Yes, even the bad and the ugly serve their purpose and are meant to teach us valuable lessons that perhaps cannot be taught any other way.  After losing a parent and losing (in another sense) a partner I was once destined to marry, I can say with confidence and with firsthand experience that life can be unbearably hard.   Just when you think you have it all figured out, everything you’ve ever known can be altered in a heartbeat, literally. 
I lost my dad on January 9th 2009.  I was 22 and could never have prepared myself for such a painful heartache and tremendous lost.  For those of you who have had the privilege of knowing my father, you know exactly what I mean.  There’s not a day that goes by I don’t think about my dad and I sure hope I’m making him smile in the clouds.
This past September I was faced with another sort of lost. After being together for well over a decade, my “high school sweetheart” and I closed, not a chapter, but rather a lengthy novel that has been wrote in great detail.  Just like any thrilling novel, our story contained an abundant amount of: love, dedication, trials, tribulations, despair and joy alike. There’s little I regret in terms of my time spent with him.  Despite multiple attempts to make it work, I think we were both faced with the harsh reality that life doesn’t necessarily always pan out the way you had envisioned it to, but the beautiful thing is learning that it’s okay. We’ve both since been learning more about ourselves than we could have ever imagined and it’s now time to move forward and start our own journeys. 

“When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.”

There are two avenues one can take when faced with hardships.  There’s the path of least resistance and then there’s the path of change and perseverance.  After wandering down both paths I’ve come to the realization that there’s really only one thing certain in life and that’s uncertainty.   You never truly know what’s in store for you on this short journey called life, however I’m continuing to learn that resistance is a disservice to time and most often things really do happen for a reason, whether you believe in that cornball statement or not, it’s my personal Truth.  Metaphorically speaking, the universe and higher powers at be ultimately hold the wheel, however it’s our responsibility to control the pedals.  Live life to its fullest, learn from past mistakes, believe in change, embrace the unknown and have faith that everything will be okay. 
For those friends and family, old and new, you know who you are, thank you from the bottom of my heart for your relentless support and love you’ve shared with me during my darkest moments.   
Call me corny and sappy, (I know it’s true), but please also don’t forget to call me humble, honest, kind and grateful for life and all of its wonderful experiences and possibilities.  Cheers!


Love, Lisa